I always become hugely inconsistent with my blogging habits towards the end of the month. It's a bad thing.

Know what else is a bad thing? Amazon.co.uk, that's what! It just stole a TON of money from me. They emailed me to say they're gonna send me a bunch of CDs in exchange, but I mean, come on! What's that you say Amazon? I can even choose the CDs I want to receive? Well, I still don't think it's fair that you want money for them....but I did get a pretty spectacular pay last week...

MC Lars tweeted me a few hours ago. Pretty big moment in my life to be honest! I had earlier tweeted about being not sure about going to see him next week. I won't go into details, but I'm now thinking I will. What a legend he is.

Been having a few bad dreams recently about some people from an old life. Not too nice. The worst thing is waking up and thinking about them for the next few hours. It's a really unpleasant way to start the day. Plus, it makes me think about things like, do I need some sort of closure or something? I can't explain it very well. I mean, I'm totally over all that, but when I dream about that sort of thing, I wonder to myself, have I really, properly moved on? Ah, who knows? I know there's only a couple of ways to solve the problem, and I know which one I'm opting for (not my Dexter-esque one, as previously blogged about!!)

Tomorrow, I WILL go to the gym!!

Sad times. Dexter is finished. Pretty awesome show I thought, and I'm looking forward to season 5! I was completely gutted at how season 4 ended. I think I've got quite a wait till s5, because the lead actor is undergoing treatment for a form of cancer, so I'd assume they will have to wait for his hair to grow back before shooting restarts. Think I'm going to start watching 24....even though it reminds me of bad times in my first flat at uni. We'll see how it goes...

I am now officially covering a colleague will he is on sick leave, which means I will be working full time, but only for 4 days a week. Which is kinda awesome, because it will still be a lot more money than I usually earn, and I'll still have a decent bit of free time.

The past few days have been pretty packed, I've worked about 65 hours this past week, so needed to catch up on a fair bit of sleep in my downtime. It's kind of weird because it makes me forget a lot the things a regularly think about when I'm not doing anything else. I think a lot of that caught up with me, and I remembered how completely hung up I am over a girl. I would love nothing more than telling her, but the situation is far from ideal. She has a smile that convinces me everything in the world is ok. Urgh. I'm so completely pathetic. I'd be totally overjoyed just to spend like an hour with her. Nothing sinister in that, just hanging out and talking and that.

Definitely a contender for my dumbest blog yet.

There's something I've been meaning to blog about for ages, tomorrow, I will definitely do it. Promise.

Hmmmm...the website that posted the blink-182 tour dates in Scotland has removed them from their site. Mysterious....

Anyways, past two days I've been getting trained on a new delivery round. It's pretty tiring. I really hate the whole process because it is just a total mindfuck for a week or so until you really get to grips with what you're doing.

Terrific win for Man United tonight. AC Milan were well and truly thrashed. To make it even sweeter, Real Madrid got knocked out by Lyon. The same Real Madrid that bought Ronaldo, Kaka and Benzema for £80 million, £56 million and £40 million respectively. I find that hilarious. In total they spent £215,000,000 last summer, and have fallen at an early hurdle. Manager sacking on the cards me thinks....

Not much else to blog about right now...off to watch some Dexty :)

Damn you Megavideo!! 20 minutes left of the Dexter season 3 finale and I have used up all the minutes you can watch without paying a suscribtion. Gah!! I have to wait 54 minutes to watch anymore!

Today was relatively productive. Sorted out my CV a bit, and put a bunch of old console games on eBay. 4 of which have already been bought. Awesome.

There have been a couple of recent developments in the Ferguson household. Number 1, the boiler broke a couple of nights ago, all I can say is, thank God for my electric blanket. Secondly, we're all on some sort of detox, low fat diet, which is being overseen by mother. I'm not hugely against it in truth, despite a few complaints, we've actually enjoyed some pretty awesome home made meals. Plus it might hopefully contribute to my get fit campaign thing.

The worst thing is, I've recently discovered the awesomeness that is the Hairy Bikers. They are a Geordie pair of bikers who have a TV cookery show. They are epically funny. I think it's a Geordie trait: to be hilarious. Anyways, they have some pretty gorgeous looking, indulgent recipies. I currently have a craving for their maple syrup and walnut scones. Nom nom nom....

Right, 25 mins left....I'll go scour ebay or something I guess...

Blog time muhfuckas. I'm almost forgetting to do these, but not quite. Go me.

Today was actually awful. I won't bore you with details, but basically a colleague phoned in sick, so I had to do 2 people's rounds today. I wasn't asked, I was told. Spent the rest of the day walking around Drum, delivering post, cursing my luck, and planning my resignation letter. Again.

Trying to find a light at the end of my gloomy, dark tunnel is getting really hard.

Anyways, the result of all this is that progress will be made with my escape plan tomorrow. A full scale assault is in order I think.

I might as well mention, I found myself practicing a Dexter-esque, murderous stare, while I was going round the village today. For those of you who aren't in any way familiar with Dexter, the protagonist works for Miami Metro Police Department, in the blood spatter forensics lab. And on the side he's a serial killer. Which leads to all sorts of problems and complications. The compelling part is that is that he has morals, and a "code" that he follows for each kill, ie, each one of his victims is "deserving" of what they get. Usually his victim will have somehow wrangled out of a prison sentence due to some loophole in the judicial system, when they really shouldn't be walking free.
Anyways, it got me thinking about who I would target if I was Dexter. Trust me, when you're all alone delivering post for so long, you ponder all sorts. One of my colleagues has described someone I used to know as my "nemesis". A bit extreme in my eyes, no-one has ever really managed to get under my skin to that extent, but I can see where he's coming from. That seemed like the obvious place to start imagining. Safe to say it amused me for a while. The thought police would run riot with me.

Talking of thought police, check this out. Scary.

Right, back to my Dexterathon.....Dexathon....I think Dexathon sounds better....

I'm taking a break from my Dexter marathon for this blog. Just got to a cliff hanger as well. Curse my dedication!!

I think my last blog was a bit thought provoking. That's actually kind of satisfying.

I had football training with the primary kids today. First time I've done it in weeks, with being in Glasgow, being ill, and snow days. I can't say I've missed it. I was sort of in charge today, which I don't love, but at least I can actually do some form of actual coaching.
There's this one kid, who I swear must have ADD. He is absolutely nuts. I suspect his mother feeds him mouthfuls of sugar before coming. In fairness, it doesn't surprise me. I knew his eldest brother fairly well when I was growing up....safe to say we didn't see eye to eye, but he was a bit....erratic, as well.
I had literally walked through the door of the astroturf and 5 seconds later I had kids complaining about him and grassing him up to me. I don't want to say I can't stand him, I don't think that's right, but life would be a lot simpler without him.
I'm starting to sound like Dexter now....
This kid also used to piss me off at work. His mother made a complaint about me and the "excessive" speed with which I drive up to her house. From then on, whenever I saw the kid he told me to drive at "Five miles an hour". Which is taking the piss to be honest. I know it sounds petty, because it is. This kid is near the end of the delivery round, and the last thing you can be arsed with at that point is a kid lecturing you.

Rant over.

I never did buy any new CDs from Amazon. I added a few to my shopping cart, but never followed through. I'm thinking about getting Windows 7....but it feels like a hell of a lot of money. Oh, and an external hard drive.....for all my music. So yeah, I'm weighing all that up in my mind. If anyone has any advice it would not go amiss.

Off to find out what happens to the D-man now! I could well finish season 2 before morning. Awww crap, I'm working tomorrow. Gutted. I'm gonna be rough....

I don't really have an awful lot of subject matter to work with tonight, so go easy on me.

I'm into season 2 of Dexter now. I love websites where I can watch this kinda stuff. No adverts, no waiting a week for the next episode, just perfect. Thank you Ninjavideo. You are a (illegal) Godsend.

This little flashback is kind of fresh in my mind, after I read some group that a couple of people have joined on Facebook, but it's something that obviously resonated with me for some reason or another. I guess I must have been about 10 or 11, and me and my best friend at the time were talking about girls. My friend by this point had already had a couple of girlfriends, whereas I was still stuck in the world of having crushes on girls and doing nothing about it. Easier times. I think we must have been talking about girls that I used to be keen on, and I was making my case for no longer liking them, and he said "Once you love someone, those feelings never completely die". Powerful stuff for a prebuscent kid, but like I said, I still remember that, and I'm still curious if it rings true. I think that in a lot of ways, this theory is right....with a few obvious exceptions.

I have a craving to buy some CDs. I'm heading over to Amazon. Peace out dudes.

Ok, so after complaining about lack of sleep yesterday, I stayed up till like 3am watching Dexter. It's rather good. I squeezed in 3 episodes last night, 2 today, and another 1 just before writing this. I'm already halfway through the first season! Yikes.

I've had a lot on my mind lately. I guess with all these days off, I find myself lost in my thoughts a lot more than usual. Part of it is trying to work out the next stage of my life. Another part is down to regret and missed opportunities. And another part is about some people who used to be in my life.

I think about people, in general, an awful lot. I think I over-analyse what people say, and when I see a photo of someone I know, I'll try to understand the theme and mood of the moment.
Psycho talk? Perhaps.
The unfortunate thing is that I think by doing this, I tend to develop a dislike towards some people for no real reason. I've kind of talked about this with one of my friends, who I think in some ways, does the same sorta thing.

In saying all that, there's people in this village who have made it quite clear they have something against me. And I have no idea why. I don't consider myself to be a bad person.

Oh, mum added The Audition to her "Music that is too cool for me but I still like it" list. I thought this was a bit weird considering I was listening to "I love the way that you move" at the time. Nevertheless, I donated an Owl City album towards the cause, since I had two copies. Don't ask.

I had a song in mind for the playlist today, but I'm going to savour Audioslave for a little bit longer I think. It's just that good.